New Year, New Goals

It's a new year, and like many people I'm thinking of some of the ways I can improve my life in 2011. It would be nice to make more money have more stuff, etc., etc. But I know for a fact, that none of these things make me happy. I like stuff, sure. I want a house - instead of this 2 bedroom little thing, I'd like a house more appropriate for a family of 5. But the thing is, we're dealing just fine. It's not awful. We have a roof over our head and are blessed beyond belief. So instead, many of my changes aren't pie in the sky, unobtainable goals.  They are lifestyle changes.

1. I want to have a more serious, and intimate relationship with Jesus Christ.  So many times I find myself just complacent and just going through motions.  I hate people like me.  Well, I don't hate people at all..but I don't like that sort of attitude.  That is not a Christian life, that is a fake life.  So I'm deciding to more forward instead of standing still.  No matter how much fear I may have of what God wants me to do, I'm still going to press on.  It's the only way to go.  You can't have a fulfilling life standing still.  You always have to be moving forward. 
2. I want to loose that last 5 pounds I've been talking about loosing for a year now.  I've doing a great job loosing some weight and then maintaining.  But I need to stay in the gym.  I need to be healthy, because I think it's irresponsible not to be.
3. I want to create more memories with my children.  Once again, this does not involve going out and getting/doing a bunch of stuff, but more spending time with them and making each moment count.

 I think having goals is important.  I think taking steps to keep these goals is equally important.  Hopefully I'll find a way to take the steps and complete my goals this year, and will make 2011 a year to remember.

Things you never think you'll need to explain 101

things you never think you'll need to explain: why cat's don't play Frisbee, and how even if they did, it wouldn't be with a brush.

"I look like a Freak!"

While my mother and I were shopping yesterday, she picked up a few outfits for Elijah. He put a new one on today, walked out of his bedroom and said very excitedly, "I LOOK LIKE A FREAK!"

Bliss

Something so natural
so beautiful so real
Your taste on my mouth
your warmth on my skin

I run black fingernails through
your hair
your teeth lightly graze
the softness of my neck

I realize
this is bliss

So many years gone by
and yet
the fire still remains

New Love

1/9/08

there is nothing like the total
desperation
to know him from the inside out
eyes, ears, lips, face
memorization as if he will disappear or
fade away

the desire to give your heart over
to open up and let him climb inside
to hide nothing, yet every detail is urgent
and sweet

feeling like you can fly
but away from him you will falter
an incomprehensible emotion
of depths so great, you only hope it will last

forever