Once was a work in progress..

It may be again one day...  The following was the opening to a book idea I had.  I actually typed up about 15,000 words before something happened and I lost more than half.  It was a bit discouraging, and I haven't really picked it back up again, even though I think about it a lot.  Just a little something to share for now I guess...

Ch1 - The Dream

Avalynn

I started awake with the insistent beeping of my alarm.  I moaned and slammed my hands on the clock fumbling clumsily in an attempt to get it to shut up as fast as possible.  I’m probably going to have to fix the time before going back to bed tonight, but that wasn’t something I wanted to think about right now.  I closed my eyes and tried as hard as possible to recall the dream I just had.  It was fuzzy around the edges, as all dreams are when you wake up, but it was so real, and so disturbing and sad.  I remember the flash of blue and red; the police lights.  I remember the panicked voice of a drunken street bum; his face smudged with what looked like dirt and oil, his hair stringy with grease, a brown hat barely hanging onto his head, eyes wide and excited and just a little bit crazy.  He was being dragged off to a cruiser by a couple of officers, all the while the guy was yelling, “He just jumped!  He just stepped off the edge and down he went.”

            The dream faded out then back in, and I was watching as emergency workers dragged a body out of the water.  I was watching from above as people rushed around the body in the dark, I could tell that it was probably noisy, with all the lights flashing, people moving around; but it was as if I was watching a TV on mute, no sound.  Just before they covered the body with a white sheet I got a quick glimpse of the face of the person they pulled out of the water.  He was young; definitely my age, someone familiar. Dark black hair was spiked around his head, and a tattoo on his arm, some kind of tribal thing circling a bicep.  ‘He is just so familiar,’ I remember thinking, then flash; there he was sitting in the back of my Civic’s class.  Flash; him again sitting under a tree with a guitar in his lap in our common area at school where we sometimes ate.  Flash; him once again walking down the hall, black backpack slung over one shoulder, head down, shoulders drooped in a way as if to look invisible.  His name escapes me.  Or did I ever know it?

It's No Wonder

I love you so much, I feel it
in my hair
my gut
my toes
My heart flips like a teenager's first kiss

It's no wonder the years seem more like days

I know the things you like,
what you love 
what the glint in your eye means
You know my secrets
my heart

It's no wonder the years seem more like a lifetime

CoverGirl NatureLux Collection - Impressive!

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I was so excited to start my first campaign as a Bzzagent, I practically squealed when my free CoverGirl makeup came in the mail. I got it on a Saturday after running around all day, so I saved my first trial for Easter Sunday morning...which was actually taking a risk since I don't really have time to do my makeup twice on a Sunday before church, what with three kids to get ready and everything.

So I put the foundation on, and first thing I notice is how easily it goes on, and evens out on my skin. My skin tone is instantly evened out, and I didn't have any annoying foundation streaks to try and take care of. The makeup went on smoothly. My only problem was, while it wasn't real far off, I think I probably could have went a shade lighter on the foundation. It works - but it will be much better once I get a little bit of sun. What really impressed me though is, how much better it was than my other foundation. I was using a whipped foundation that I previously LOVED. I thought it was the best thing - but when I tried it again to compare the two foundations, I noticed that it wasn't near as easy to apply, and that the Naturelux just looked better all around.

Still yet, my favorite item was the lipstick. I was given the absolute perfect lipstick for casual wear. I couldn't have even picked a more perfect shade out on my own. The color goes on easily, and stays through light wear. You may have to reapply after eating, but what lipstick lasts through that?

I am very happy with this makeup, and will probably get more once my supply runs out.

New Year, New Goals

It's a new year, and like many people I'm thinking of some of the ways I can improve my life in 2011. It would be nice to make more money have more stuff, etc., etc. But I know for a fact, that none of these things make me happy. I like stuff, sure. I want a house - instead of this 2 bedroom little thing, I'd like a house more appropriate for a family of 5. But the thing is, we're dealing just fine. It's not awful. We have a roof over our head and are blessed beyond belief. So instead, many of my changes aren't pie in the sky, unobtainable goals.  They are lifestyle changes.

1. I want to have a more serious, and intimate relationship with Jesus Christ.  So many times I find myself just complacent and just going through motions.  I hate people like me.  Well, I don't hate people at all..but I don't like that sort of attitude.  That is not a Christian life, that is a fake life.  So I'm deciding to more forward instead of standing still.  No matter how much fear I may have of what God wants me to do, I'm still going to press on.  It's the only way to go.  You can't have a fulfilling life standing still.  You always have to be moving forward. 
2. I want to loose that last 5 pounds I've been talking about loosing for a year now.  I've doing a great job loosing some weight and then maintaining.  But I need to stay in the gym.  I need to be healthy, because I think it's irresponsible not to be.
3. I want to create more memories with my children.  Once again, this does not involve going out and getting/doing a bunch of stuff, but more spending time with them and making each moment count.

 I think having goals is important.  I think taking steps to keep these goals is equally important.  Hopefully I'll find a way to take the steps and complete my goals this year, and will make 2011 a year to remember.

Things you never think you'll need to explain 101

things you never think you'll need to explain: why cat's don't play Frisbee, and how even if they did, it wouldn't be with a brush.

"I look like a Freak!"

While my mother and I were shopping yesterday, she picked up a few outfits for Elijah. He put a new one on today, walked out of his bedroom and said very excitedly, "I LOOK LIKE A FREAK!"

Bliss

Something so natural
so beautiful so real
Your taste on my mouth
your warmth on my skin

I run black fingernails through
your hair
your teeth lightly graze
the softness of my neck

I realize
this is bliss

So many years gone by
and yet
the fire still remains